urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay blue_x_pinay blue_x_pinay 2006-12-22T15:03:05Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:83194 2006-12-22T15:03:05Z 2006-12-22T15:03:05Z ignore the&nbsp;&nbsp;last post. life doesnt suck. i just feel like pure shit right now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:82893 2006-12-22T10:58:11Z 2006-12-22T10:58:11Z life sucks. ive become just&nbsp;a straight up huge disappointment to myself. never thought i would ever live this crazy stupid lifestyle.. but i guess its just one of those phases in life. ive been talking to this guy...nothing like bf shit but im really into him... hes a DJ..and a hella good one at that. i want to get to know him more but i dont know if hes on the same levell i am. and he lives in hialeah. huge negative. we'll see what happens.... someone give me some words of encouragement i feel like complete and utter crap right now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:82519 2006-12-22T02:11:07Z 2006-12-22T02:11:07Z <font size="5" color="#3366ff"><i><b>space</b></i></font> tonight bitches!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:82381 2006-12-08T02:31:03Z 2006-12-08T02:31:03Z if i really know what the real deal about someone i know is...im going to be completely disgusted!!!!!!!!&nbsp; i never would have thought this person would do something like that.... gross.&nbsp;i hope someone knows what im talking about...<br /><br />shawns party was crazy this weekend. it consisted of strippers, fights, and people getting their asses kicked (which they deserved). haha but all in all i had mucho fun.<br /><br />i cant wait until these upcoming weekends. i really wish i lived in miami..the drive sucks but its WORTH IT!!! club space is the best club ever. (voted best dance club in america) i dont know, i feel like im in my own world when im there its so much fun!!!!<br /><br />ultra music festival is coming up... im starting to plan already. im thinking about getting a hotel for like 3 days and just staying down there being that the conference is like a week long. i dunno...&nbsp;<br /><br />i think im going to switch my major to sports medicine. pharmacy isnt my thing...<br /><br />just thought id update but i&nbsp; have to go now... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:81999 2006-11-28T05:29:02Z 2006-11-28T05:29:02Z im hardcore....<br />but not THIS hardcore...<br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/blue_x_pinay/pic/000018c2/"><img height="240" width="229" border="0" alt="" src="http://pics.livejournal.com/blue_x_pinay/pic/000018c2/s320x240" /></a><br /><br /><br />this makes me giggle lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:81827 2006-11-23T14:46:34Z 2006-11-23T14:46:34Z Happy Thanksgiving everyone. Im thankful for house music. There are no words to describe how much this music has changed me for the better.&nbsp;<br /><br />SPACE in miami was crazzzzy last night. I just got home not too long ago lol.... but yea, i was definately in my own state of mind yesterday it was amazing!! One of the DJ's slipped me a vip ticket to afterhours but i couldnt go being that i had to leave with my friends. god do i love trance/techno like a mutha! =) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:81598 2006-11-18T22:44:23Z 2006-11-18T22:44:23Z WTFFFFFFFFF....I HATE BANK OF AMERICA!!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:81365 2006-10-09T20:29:19Z 2006-10-09T20:29:19Z i have a chem exam tonight...someone pray for me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:81115 2006-10-05T02:37:16Z 2006-10-05T02:37:16Z oh my god. life is EXCELLENT!!!!&nbsp;i feel like a fucking PIMP, i swear!!! haha&nbsp;<br /><br />details later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:80647 2006-10-02T01:55:08Z 2006-10-02T01:55:08Z well its 9:30 and im bored. im waiting for anton to get out of work so we can go to nocturnal in miami tonight.&nbsp;yea, ive started hanging out with anton again but we are nothing more than friends and thats how it will always be. hes like a big annoying brother..cant live with him cant live without him. anywho.. nothing has really changed. i decided my last phone call to michael was tonight. i just dont want anything to do with him anymore. its like the more i talk to him or call him, the more im just digging myself a deep hole. hes just a big loser.&nbsp;<br /><br />fau is really hard for me. ive been doing pretty bad on my exams. it would be right for me to say its my fault, but honestly its not. my professors are useless!!!! they lecture on things that arent on the test. my math professor cant speak english!!! ....college sucks. i cant wait to transfer!<br /><br />anyway, about the 26 year old guy that i was talking about...hes not really my type. i went on a date with him the other day and things went off pretty good. hes a pretty cool guy but he smokes... im def. not into people that smoke so it was a big turn off. but he was very intellegent and funny, two things that i LOVE in a guy. other than that..i think we're just going to be friends. nothing more than just chemistry lab partners :)&nbsp;<br /><br />oh what else did i do... OH!! i went to the hard rock and won $40!!! lol...it was quite interesting..i was all excited and screaming &amp; all of the old people were like "pshhh 40?..ill wipe that with my ass!"&nbsp; haha but yea., slots are the shizzitt!!!<br /><br />alright well im gunna get ready..<br /><br />**anyone in the band...whens the next home game? i want to go! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:80558 2006-09-29T02:40:57Z 2006-09-29T02:40:57Z sometimes, i just want to punch babies.<br /><br /><br />i have a paper due tomorrow. i have an exam at 4. i have the gayest math lab to go to which means no lunch. i got my period today.&nbsp;<br /><br /><br />yea sometimes, i just want to punch babies.<br /><br />but im talking to this one guy. hes 26. what do you think urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:80326 2006-09-19T17:18:43Z 2006-09-19T17:25:50Z ive been neglecting livejournal for a while but ive been pretty busy with college and everything. college life is good...however i wish i was doing the "college experience". im staying home for this semester though just to gain some more money for tuition and stuff. after that im planning on leaving in january. im studying pre pharmacy now..taking easy classes. my phsycology class is a joke. the class is a 50 minute lecture class talking about the powerpoint with notes that are already online to study from. yesterday i looked around (theres about 300 people in my class) and everyone is on their laptop on myspace while hes talking. i just smiled...<br /><br />anyway..i really didnt want to talk about my school that much. it actually gets me stressed. its pretty easy but the homework is just ridiculous!!!! all of my homework is online and theres like 50 assignments each subject due EVERYDAY!!! its so time consuming. id say i spend around 5 hours a day just doing hw not including the class. ok im done..im just getting frustrated now lol<br /><br />mike and i broke up but what else is new. i talk to him every now and then but as far as he goes, im done with that shit. im only 18 years old, i have so much to look forward to and so many new people to meet. why would i want to be strapped down to someone? I just want to live my life, have fun, and most of all BE HAPPY!!!! <br /><br />ok well thats it for now, i need to catch up on hw! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:80085 2006-08-29T09:04:41Z 2006-08-29T09:04:41Z <p>its 5 in the morning. i just got back from the gas station...NOT because i WANTED to though. I was on E and by the time I would run out of gas, there would be no gas left at any gas station.<br /><br />this whole storm ernesto is really pissing me the fuck off. if you dont know by now, i work at a pharmacy. we got slammed yesterday. people are taking this fucking thing WAY TOO seriously!!! i understand if you ran out or whatever and you need your refill but DONT&nbsp;REQUEST FOR A FUCKING 90 DAY SUPPLY OF YOUR GODDAMN USELESS SLEEPING PILLS, COUGH SYRUP,YOUR GAY ASS BIRTH CONTROL, ETC...!!!!!!!!!!&nbsp; sometimes i just wanna pop pills and go on a shooting spree in there. you know what i should really take video of the amount of ridiculous customers that come in.<br /><br />ok im done ranting right now. i have to get some sleep because i work 10-8 today. come visit me and see how well i work under stress =)</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:79719 2006-08-20T16:08:04Z 2006-08-20T16:08:04Z sometimes i just wanna punch him in the thoat urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:79387 2006-08-20T01:14:23Z 2006-08-20T01:14:23Z <p>fucking damnit!!!! i am so angry right now &amp; i almost forgot i had a livejournal but i just remembered i can vent in here instead without going crazy. michael is fucking the most idiotic phsyco that ive ever met!!!!! so we were playing around or whatever today and he wouldnt let go of me so after 15 minutes of wrestling he lets go of me and i give him a taste of what he did to me and he fucking goes crazy!!!! he threw me to the bed, pinned me down and started yelling in my fucking face. ive never seen him so mad in my life. just goes to show you how much he needs to be OUT of my life as soon as possible. then he started whining and complaining that i hurt him like a big pussy that he is.&nbsp;<br /><br />school isnt starting early enough for me. that is what i missed about highscool. i had no time to really think about anything (me,boyfriend,sports,extra time for myself) i was just so busy with everything and thats what i liked.&nbsp;it really got me out of all sorts of trouble too.<br /><br />do you think it was really wrong of me to get back at him? i was only trying to give him a taste of his own medicine. maybe the little bitch just cant handle me iunno haha!<br /><br />ok its really good to vent in here. im done and im going&nbsp;watch the rest of project runway.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:79119 2006-08-18T22:10:51Z 2006-08-18T22:10:51Z wow. its very frightening knowing i'm pretty much on my own now. i just dropped around $600 in textbooks for college. even though im pissed off that it pretty much blew a hole in my wallet, i feel very excited about whats going to happen in my life right now. im really going to work hard for this pharmacy degree. theres no turning back now and im not about to give up. _{^{<font color="#ff6600">OMG I CANT WAIT!!!!!!</font>}} urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:78936 2006-08-17T12:49:35Z 2006-08-17T12:49:35Z <p>...from being creative today. so its my first post...<br /><br /></p><a name="cutid1"></a><div class="ljcut" text="PICTURES!"><br /><img alt="" src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v242/blue_x_pinay/100_5274.jpg" /><br />Little halter top (I actually got the fabric at Walmart for $1 a yard!!!)<br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v242/blue_x_pinay/100_5279.jpg" /><br />Cute top you can put over some jeans... it fits perfect!<br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v242/blue_x_pinay/100_5282.jpg" /><br />You could also tie around a cute striped pattern around to give more flare!<br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v242/blue_x_pinay/100_5283.jpg" /><br />Cute top I made a while ago. I got the fabric at Joanns for $1 a yard! I love the d-ring as well. You cant see but it's studded in crystals.<br /><br /><img alt="" src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v242/blue_x_pinay/100_5284.jpg" /><br />It also ties in the back! <br /><br /><br />Well that was me being creative for a couple of hours. You'll probably hear from me later! Tell me what you think!</div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:78648 2006-07-29T21:01:18Z 2006-07-29T21:01:18Z my life is just one big ball of confusion. my boyfriend wants the perfect girl of his dreams. sorry but youre never going to find her. she might have everything you could ever want in a girl but she will probably have like 4 toes or something. i try so hard to make him happy and be more affectionate but that would just make me be something im not. sorry i dont smother you with kisses and call you every 10 seconds and jump all over you&nbsp;but im not that girl. as long as you know how much i love you thats all that matters. im not going to play this game anymore, high school is over so you can stop with the bullshit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:78353 2006-06-28T06:14:07Z 2006-06-28T06:14:07Z i havent updated in ages. i feel so down though its not even funny. mike and i are over and i feel so terrible. JESUS WHY DO I LET MY ANGER GET TO ME!?!?! its all my fault and i need advice. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:78249 2006-04-28T01:53:07Z 2006-04-28T01:53:07Z Well unfortunately life still hasnt been good since the last post. Today I think i was an accident waiting to happen, and I WAS. so my mom called me out early because I wasnt really feeling good and I didnt really feel like eating school lunch because then it would just get worse. so i got home and my mom made me lunch and I was on my way back to school and what do you know...I get into a fucking car accident. im not racist or anything so please dont get offended...but why cant hatians fucking DRIVE?! heres how it went: im driving behind this guy and the light starts to turn yellow at the intersection and I have more than enough time to pass through the intersection. all of a sudden this asshole decides hes not going and he slams on his breaks right in the middle of the intersection causing me to slam of my breaks so i dont hit him. so the lady that was driving behind me slammed on her breaks, crashing into the back of my car. i start flipping out and jump out of my car and start yelling at the guy that caused all this. btw, who was on his fucking cell phone. he rolled down his window while talking on the phone acting like nothing ever happend. I was like "are you going to fucking pull over cause you're the one that caused this fucking accident!!!" hes like "I didnt do anything!!!" and rolled up his window..when the light turned green he went!!! i got his lisence plate. the poor girl behind me was crying and going crazy. i felt so bad for her. her whole front end was smashed inward. luckily everyone is ok but she has to pay for my damage since she hit me. it couldve went worse so im happy im alive!&nbsp;<br /><br />i swear, im&nbsp;having like the worst week ever. Gradbash better be fucking orgasmic or something to make up for all the shit ive been through this week. so yea, thats why i wasnt in band today. well mike is coming home with some free carrabbas food since he works there. thanks for the advice you guys gave me... but for some reason i have a hard time actually doing it. i really want this relationship to work and ive never realized how stubborn i was until now!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:78011 2006-04-25T02:58:26Z 2006-04-25T02:58:26Z I just got home from work and its almost 11. Im so sick of doing this shit everyday! It's&nbsp;getting so old...I'm tired of busting my ass and getting the shittiest pay ever! I dont know what happend to me, I was always very studious. Now, i'm just a fucking loser with shitty ass grades!!! I just want to give up...Im failing trig...who does that? I just have to make up like 3 tests and Im done..but unfortunately I need to find time to do that.&nbsp;<br /><br />My relationship with Mike is rocky and it's all my fault. I don't know anyone that is a bigger bitch than I am!!! He treats me like a fucking princess and I feel like I pay him back with pretty much nothing. All I do is find a way to get mad...and it's over the dumbest things!! Sometimes, I just wish he would break up with me because he deserves so much better. Maybe it would make me realize that I need a reality check and life isn't all about Samantha. I always hated girls like that and i'm starting to turn into my own enemy!!!&nbsp;<br /><br />Im going to bed. No time for hw, no time to practice, no time to eat!!! Goodnight<br /><br />p.s. my mom wants me to work in the pharmacy with her as a new job. I would get much better pay, but if you were in my shoes, would you really want to work with your mom all day? I need advice. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:77725 2006-04-18T02:35:31Z 2006-04-18T02:35:31Z mannn fuck me a new asshole :( lol I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOOOOLL!&nbsp;<br /><br />my spring break was unforgetable. i dont think i had this much fun ever on any break. well i went to orlando a couple of days with mikeypoo. went to islands of adventure. the lines were so freakin packed during the day! fortunately night time came around the lines died down to only waiting in them for 5 minutes!!! took a cab to the hotel and watched dick and jane! i thought it was going to be funnier oh well. after that we went shopping at all 20 bagillion outlet malls. cruised around orlando area&nbsp;theres so many things to do there. so hopefully another trip will be planned.&nbsp;got like 3 new pairs of shoes and some more clothes.&nbsp;<br /><br />went to a panthers game saturday with tara, mike, and buddy. they had that nathans hot dog eating contest...i wouldve probably won being that i eat like 10 hot dogs a day haha. the game was really fun as well. taras&nbsp;physco ass boyfriend&nbsp;on the other hand is freakin crazy. he&nbsp;didnt&nbsp;want tara with me so he called me on my phone and threatened me that he was going to kill me and my family if i didnt bring tara to the parking lot to him. what an asshole hes fucking out of his mind. as for the panthers game,&nbsp;they had sudden death but unfortunately we fell short of a goal and washington won.&nbsp;yesterday and today i went to the beach with my bro, mike, and buddy. these two people were having sex in the ocean....her ass was saggy and disgusting.<br /><br />well its around 10:30 and i should be going.&nbsp; toodles urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:77556 2006-04-07T22:15:01Z 2006-04-07T22:15:01Z shakira hips dont lie first day of spring break! anddd im not really doing anything lol. i practiced my song today and learned i have many more hours of practicing the song before i get it right. i heard my neighbor 2 houses down telling me to "shut that thing off" i found it amusing and kept on playing. haha <br />anyway, for spring break i have a work a few days and than im going to the rapids on monday hopefully. on thursday, friday, and saturday, me, mom, my brother, and mike are going to orlando to go to the outlet malls, islands of adventure, and seaworld for my brother. so my spring break will be pretty fun! <br /><br />im kinda debating on as to what i want for a graduation present. i either get a trip of some sort (like a cruise) or i get a laptop. i dont know what i want right now. what would you guys choose if you were me? <br /><br />so overall, things are going great right now. my job doesnt suck as much, it's spring break, but most of all, im in love!!! :)<br /><br />Have a safe spring break everyone! dont get in too much trouble! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:76732 2005-12-12T13:01:55Z 2005-12-12T13:01:55Z It's kind of funny how myspace just took over and nobody ever updates in these things anymore...just every 2 months. Well a lot of things have been going really good from the last time I updated. Well, that "guy" that i went out with to dinner with is now my boyfriend. I feel kind of inseperable from him. When Im not at school, Im with him. After work, I go to his house. I still cant figure out how I got him so fast..we started talking for a couple days and then set up a date. I asked him to go to homecoming 2 days before the dance and everything just happend from there, it's so weird. I dont want to spill everything out at once...but im sure you guys know how im feeling now ;) <br /><br />This week I'm going to be so busy as will the rest of band... Today and tomorrow I have work.<br /><br />Wednesday- concert....I dont really have a good feeling about this. I dont know, we'll see how it goes. <br /><br />Thursday- John Knox Parade...I love those people. Like the smallest things make them happy (for the most part)...i wish everyone could be like them. Right after that, theres the sports banquet. <br /><br />Friday- there's school but.....I'll be up in Orlando for the Macy's Day Parade with the band.Its gunna be so much fun.... ill take a lot of pictures. <br /><br />Well im gunna go for now... i have to finish my package. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blue_x_pinay:76432 2005-11-16T12:46:32Z 2005-11-16T12:46:32Z Well it's about that time to update. A lot of things have been happening in the past few weeks but i dont feel like typing all of that stuff. plus its too upsetting anyway (hurricane wilma). anywho, i kinda started talking to someone now. hes really cool and hes so funny. last night we went out to this mexican restuarant and after went to the beach. there was this guy in the back of his van singing and playing the trumpet and all the old people were dancing it was pretty cool. after went back to his house and just chilled for an hour with his little sister. hopefully something can happen...iono. ;)<br /><br />tomorrow i have volleyball practice (i made the broward all star team! :D) but im still going to dread it because i know how tall those beasts are. i hope i just play backrow the entire game cause my 4 foot ass wont stand a chance with those men. then thursday is the all star volleyball game...but so is our football game which i have to play in the band. soo i dont know, im thinking of asking mr.d if i can leave around 4th quarter so i can go home real quick and go to the volleyball game. friday is homecoming which im stoked about. he said he would go with me so it'll be fun! if not him then im bringin my bitch desiree. haha..<br /><br />saturday i have noo idea how the fuck im going to finish this day. i just got a letter in the mail from collegeboard telling me that the rescheduled day for SAT is saturday. BUT i have green market and the fair!!!!! im so stressed about this shit....i hate having to tell mr.d i cant make it...but you know that test is kind of my life right now. im thinking about calling them to reschedule it cause i want to take another practice test before i take the real one. but im kinda thinking of it right now. ill probably be coming home around morning time @ homecoming so it wouldnt be a good idea of waking up at 7 in the morning to take a 5 hour test. iono. well im going to go because i have to finish this retarded anime package haha. toodles!!